I've been so bad about keeping up with this blog this semester, for no reason other than the busy-ness factor. It's been an exhausting semester that's ended on several really wonderful notes: a productive and educational finals week, successful comprehensive exams, a beautiful concert and goodbye in South Bend, a choir concert in Albany, etc etc etc. All good things that helped make up for a really crappy semester.
I do have to admit, though, that through all the successes of the past 4 weeks, my diet has not been one of them. As we drove back from Albany last night, McDonalds ice cream cone in hand, I had the shocking realization that I was doing exactly what I didn't want to be doing. There I was, eating an ice cream cone, not even 2 hours after enjoying cake, a cookie, chocolate, fruit, etc. at the beautiful reception the temple threw after our concert. I bought that ice cream without the slightest thought that I a.) didn't need it and b.) didn't really want it that badly. I just bought it and ate it for no reason.
It was scary, because it was a return to the Tracy that I was 2 years ago. I realized last night that I've had a lot of those moments lately, and while they're not showing up on the scale right now, they eventually will. Therefore, my goal for the summer is to get myself back on track and back into my healthy, happy groove. In honor of my summer goal, I present a list of goals to strive for this summer:
1. Shop at the farmer's market as often as possible for the freshest and most delicious summer produce.
2. Continue my goal to eat all the produce without letting any go to waste.
3. GO TO THE GYM. My summer job provides me with a free membership (yay!) so I have no excuses for not getting my ass in gear.
4. Scrape up the money to work with a trainer, even if just a few times, to teach me how to properly use the weight machines. It's time to tone!
5. See a therapist if/when necessary to allievate the stress that comes with living at home.
6. Get back on my supplements (sorry Stef...I jumped off the bandwagon for awhile...but I'm ready to hop back on!)
7. Use this space to express myself and my successes and frustrations with the evolution of my best self.
7. Continue to be gentle with myself, forgiving mistakes and remembering that I am created betzelem Elohim (in the image of God) no matter how much I weigh.